Archived chat creates a turmoil!

It is Tuesday night and I was sitting in my home lawn, swinging by, with my laptop and blog. Did I forget to share about my two kittens who are proudly the carriers of their great kingdom, entering into the 4th generation🐱🐱

When the love for blogging is deep, the relationship with writing is inseparable. Amongst all the chaos of life the only thing that soothes you is pen and paper or keyboard and monitor. It is believed that a normal person has about 12000 to 60000 thoughts per day, of which 80% are negatives and others are exactly the same repetitive thoughts as the day before.

The morning had flushed in enough memories from the past. As soon as I come home, I see lovely meal treat prepared by my one and only- Mother chef💓 Dinner time is that time where the whole family joins in together sharing about the hustle bustle of the day, followed by mumma serving hot frankies on the table. What more could I have asked for in this peaceful evening!

Somehow, a restless person like me cannot stay in one mood for longer than few minutes and the quota of those few minutes was on the verge of exhausting soon! As if my mind had started experiencing the tremors of the upcoming storm in the mind! I thought to go and swing a bit and play with the cats to digress myself from that stormy wave, but to my expectation it all adds up more and more to the breaking mood. How can one be so much destined to stay in melancholic mood for more than needed! How can one strive daily for so much of patience and how can one try and maintain their inner self beyond a level!

Although these questions weren’t as horrifying as the core thing torturing my mind! Memories from past had so much occupied my heart which was thriving to beat, but than what was stopping me? The fear of future and the pain of the past were both weighing equally on each side of my mind.

He had played a song for me on a night when we decided to depart from each other’s life, finally caught the queue in my playlist, it was bidding a goodbye! Today was his birthday and the least I could do was write, write and write until my fingers cracked and my eyes wrecked!

Suddenly looking at that tiny kitten chewing a piece of bread, made me realize that life wasn't so harsh as I was taking it! Those poor cats are unaware about what is going to happen the next moment and still were climbing on the curtains, rolling back in full speed till they could smash their tails on the floor.

The memories that were haunting me were nothing but just the shadow of my unfulfilled wishes from the past, in other words just the perception because it never happened in real yet was just always in my dream…………..