She came home after a day long at work and grabbed a cup of tea. Her routine was to swing by the lawn for a while and sit with Mom.
Today the only difference was that she switched on TV and channeled a dubbed south Indian movie. It was for the first time she decided to give a try and set long for 3 hrs completing the movie named "vedalam"
Not only she was watching the movie but her mommie dearest also joined her and suddenly got so engrossed that she started presuming every scene of it and to her pleasant surprise every guess of hers was a perfect shot!
Clock struck 10pm and she fills up her bottle, collects her necessities, carries her stack of clothes and proceeds towards her room.
Meanwhile the outside climate was also taking a twist along with the inside Scenes.
Clouds were striking hard along with the lightening, converting sound energy into electrical energy and the impact inside her room was aptly changing as she got into arguments with her mother.
The guilt of speaking undesirable and unwanted words in the heat of the moment, was biting her more than you could imagine.
Everytime she would think to control her tongue and mind but she fails miserably.
Her short tempered nature was her weakness but she couldn't overcome it. Everytime she decides to control it, she saw tears in her mom's eyes, which multiplies furiously in the load of the guilt she was carrying.
Why can't she keep her mom happy?!
Why she does what she doesn't intend?!
Hundreds of questions to which there was no answer and the only thing that weighed was- "the unbearable load of guilt!"
With a lump in her throat she jumps in bed and starts penning down that state of mind which only pen and paper could translate....
~MS
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